To YOU
Yea..this gonna be a long post i think.
Wanna write something about my 'family'.
During my 3 years of uni life from 2006-2009, i stayed with 3 different 'family'. The first 'family' was just that so-so, due to the not so comfortable environment in the house i stay. But i felt fortunated that i have Teressa, Lyanne, XiaoPei and Xy who came in later on, they make me feel better. While the second 'family' was just that nice and happy, we have Shiau Hui, Layen, and BaoYao!! A12-03A at Ixora Apartment was so clean and comfortable, everyone was happy and pleasure to stay there...i think.
When comes to the third 'family', from June 2008 till now (though i am having my internship at Sunway) and perhaps till 2010. At the beginning, I feel good and free. But when time goes on and on, something started to go wrong. I don't know what are the real factors which contributed to the 'family's problems, but what i know is the so called 'family' is getting quiet and quiet. I believe so, if one day in the future the house begin to noisy again, it's the time of quarral. Is that what I want? or perhaps We want?? The answer is NO, definitely NO!!!
Normally problems came in when someone disagree on someone's else action, and i guess this is what happening now. When YOU disagree or don't like the way we act, and try to create some problems out of it. I know i don't have the right to say anything on how YOU percept about us, but please at least respect your SISTER which is your REAL FAMILY MEMBER!!! Don't you know you're hurting YOUR family member who always care you more than anyone else??
I am neither angry or irrational right at this moment, i just want to deliver something to YOU, someone i consider as a FAMILY member since long time ago. Yea, it's true YOU might and you have the right to oppose/disagree on what we'd done. But, please think deeply on what we'd done is that really impact or affect YOU and perhap the other YOU???
On the other hand, i can say what YOU'd done and said had a great impact on all of US, especially ur SISTER who always care about you. Besides disappointed, i feel that you are very ignorant as well...You are the eldest in this and that 'FAMILY', but what YOU'd done consider the behavior of a ELDEST BROTHER?? A question that i wanted to ask YOU long long time ago, don't you want YOUR family to be happy??? Please answer if possible though it's quite impossible.
I always tell myself to be stand tuned in the middle of every incident, don't stand 'overside'. But the more i hold in this position, the more i found wrong. I used to stand by YOUR site and think of your situation, sometimes i can accept on how YOU will behave like this and that, but accept doesn't mean agree! Accept because you can't change the way you behave and i have to accept it, and i am totally DISAGREE on the way you behave (in some behaviors) when the behaviors/attitudes influence your 'FAMILY', the whole family...
The purpose for me to write this post is just to express what i'd feel to YOU. Everyone expects happiness in their life, don't you hope so? If your answer is yes, then why do you still critize on what others had done to go after happiness?? Try to think of reversely, you don't like OTHERS (you know WHO i am talking about) to interrupt you in order gain your happy life with that 'SOMEONE', and so do WE!!
For the other 'SOMEONE', your appearance in my third 'family' has a great impact i can say. I admit that i used to have very good first impressions on YOU, but when time flies and the real facts reveal, i feel just so........YOUR so-called 'ignorrant' in the past become your tool to attack people now. I feel shame and solute you at the same time. Shame on you because you create problemss for other's FAMILY, and solute you for being able to do so since you are sooooo 'innocent'!
YOU and YOU might feel I am the BAD PERSON for writing this, but I don't really care about this. I can't stand with someone who hurt their FAMILY, and whom the family member is the one I consider as family member as well.
One last thing, i hope YOU remember that:
THINGS THAT YOU LIKE DOES NOT MEAN IT HAVE TO BE LIKED BY OTHERS, AND THE THINGS THAT YOU DO NOT LIKE DOES NOT MEAN IT WOULD NOT BE LIKED BY OTHERS.
