I missed out my last paper today, ridiculous?? Yea..i really do so. First ever in mt life, i did such a mistake, a stupid+idiot mistake. What's going wrong?? Nothing but me who can't wake up after 48 hours study and exams, when i opened my eyes and i feel something wrong with the color of the sky..It was so bright!! When i looked at the clock, i shouted out 'EXAM'!!!!!! But, it's too late coz it was ad 10am while the exam started at 9am....What can i do now??? Nothing but sit for supplementary exam that i NEVER been to!
No one will excuse me for doing so...Because it was such a FOOL that no one do as me! I am totally lost now. Internship will begin on the coming Monday, and i just finished packing my stuffs. I didn't prepare well actually, just cross fingers and hope everything will be fine ~~
Today, i am going back to hometown. Wanna meet my dearest peiqing for the last time! Still remember how cute and hardworking she used to be... Hardly imagined how can i react when look at my fren who lay inside the coffin deadly. I keep telling myself that it's over, it's over... But, how can i faced it?? From the early of 2009, my lovely grandma leave me, then following my eldest uncle on LAST WEEK during first week of final exam. and NOW my fren!
Anyone tell me what i can do?? I am LOST!!!!!!!!
No one will care about how i feel i guess, just assume that i HAVE to BE like this that, assume that i can cope everything well, assume that i am fine. But in fact, i am NOT!
今天是端午节，可是我并不喜欢今年的这一天。从早上开始，我就忙着两张考试，两张我很紧张的考试。好不容易考完了，在可以倒数最后一张的时候，我却接到一个坏消息。我的一位从幼稚园就认识的同学，佩清去世了。听到这个消息，我很震惊，为什么会这样？？有谁可以告诉我？？？第一次听到的时候，我多希望我听错了。第二次电话再响的时候，我的希望破灭了。那到底还是发生了，有人可以告诉我可以怎样吗？
计划，永远赶不上变化。我深深的体会到这道理。如果有如果，事情就不会是这样吧！人生，就是那么难以猜测。我开始害怕，下一秒钟，会是怎样？又有人要离开了吗？还是该我走了？如果我就这么离开，那么我的家人怎么办？我的朋友怎么办？
现在的心情真得很灰，这个突如其来的消息击中了我。哭完了，泪流干了，对吧？为什么心情还那么差？？
我好想看到彩虹哦。。。
应该是时候，
把自己定位，
然后再向前。
四个月后，
我将会是，
另一个我。
不同的，
改变了，
的我。
等吧！
就那么一分钟，大家就能目送大舅了。
因为一分钟，大家都错过了。
电梯门打开的那一霎那，大姨还在想那具被包着，推出来的尸体会是大舅吗。
上到楼上看见病床空空的那一秒钟，大家都知道，
刚才那位，就是我们的大舅，他们的大哥。。。
因为一分钟，
他们都错过了。
除了遗憾，还是遗憾。。。
都是因为，一分钟。
大舅，安息吧！希望你在另外一个天堂，可以开心，安康。
Time really flies very fast, again it is the exam season now...Final exam for MMU start from today onwards till 30/5, how's your preparation??
G.O.O.D.L.U.C.K dudes!!
就很想，把今天的心情记录下来。
今天是星期四，晴天。
我很迟才醒来，因为我发了一场恶梦。。。我梦见，我害怕去的地方。为什么我怕？人家说多去几次就惯了，可是我确是越去越怕。真的，那种恐惧感有增无减。今天，我又去了，去探望在医院的大舅，跟外婆以前的医院一样，病房才相隔一楼而已。从下车到上楼，那熟悉的电梯，味道还有环境，令我很不舒服。
知道他得病的那个晚上，我失眠了好几天。很担心，他会怎样？家人会怎样吗？怎么办？？好不容易，大家都接受了这个事实，安排好和病情开始受控制的时候，外婆去世。现在，病魔又在折磨他。虽然妈妈已经跟我讲过了，但是当我看到病床上那张写着D.I.L的卡片时，我还去问护士怎么回事。心里早就知道明白，可是现在的我在想，真的要放弃了吗？？就这样了吗？？生老病死，本来是很正常的现象，但是可以这么生，这么就老，但是一定要这么病和这么死吗？？？
很感慨，生命就如此而已吗？
今晚，不要再发恶梦了。
有些东西，我不该再执著了。我知道的，因为那些我都控制不了。时间，真的是一个很重要因数，它可以决定以一个人，或者一件事情的趋向，还有真相。。。以前，我会以第一感觉来衡量一个人或一件事。很多年后的今天，我不一样了，或许是长大了吧！因为一些所谓的真相，让我觉得为什么人可以那么样？虚伪，虚伪！！！
这场游戏，几时会结束？谁会是赢家？我想，都不重要的吧。。。
推动力，我需要你。谁，可以成为我的推动力呢？
Wow, guess what?? We are entering May now!!! It's too fast arr..OMG!! Have been busy for the whole April, and now I have to prepare many things in May also: presentations, final exams, and my internship stuffs...
Back from a short break, not bad :) Having gathering with some uncles and aunts, damn funny la!! haha... Have you ever seen a family debate during dinner? It's a warm and funny scenario...(",)
The weather is damn hot, and the 'KNS' virus is attacking people around the world...So, what should we do now is to take good care of ourselves and also people around us.
Not forgetten, Mothers' day is coming soon loo....Any plan for you and your mum??
